God gave me good health, wealth, family, friends and `peaceful` life.
But, I was not peaceful in real sense as my life was full of guilt feeling till those were identified and addressed. There were many but I mention few here.
During my collage days, I was preparing for the Engineering Entrance in reputed collages. I had a good cycle, but I insisted to have his Bajaj Scooter for my tution to save little time and energy. My father agreed and he himself took my cycle and continued. It continued for almost two years. I could not clear any of the reputed exams and later joined IAF as an air warrior.When I was in training centre my father underwent a surgery for hydrosil for which one of the reason was cycling too much.Since then I had a guilt feel.
I volunteered for Martial Arts classes in Bangalore from Mr Babu T. Raghu and when I got passed out I was at Red Beltstandard and had completed Basic Rock Climbing Course also. Later I participated in sixMega High Altitude Expeditions, each year once in the Himalayas.
I got married in 2006 and did not participate in any Expeditions for two reasons... One because of a new responsibility and second I heard many negative talks about my Instructor who was also team leader for Mountaineering Expeditions. Also, I was undergoing some financial hardships because of high cost involved in such expeditions. I have a guilt of not pursuing my martial art and adventure activities as expected out of me as I was going quite good and was holding a Black belt. I was teaching martial arts too.
I have two sisters. I have guilt of not assisting my dad adequately, financially during the marriage of both the sisters.
The last guilt is giving too much time to our beloved MS. I have failed in four papers in my MBA exams from IGNOU because of putting more time to MS and less for my studies.
I prefer to write in my comment section for the action taken to get rid of Guilt and to have real peace in my life.
