I’am a traitor,a traitor of big time, to my family and The God who always took good care of me even before I was born . My mom trusted me a lot with her hard earned money for which she had to stay abroad and leave my Father alone with me . My Father died without without her so that she could earn and raise us well. My Father missed her a lot, though she did came to see my Father two days before he died. I still can’t forgive myself for blowing all her money on raising and protecting a family of seven with whom I didn’t even had a distant blood relation. I know it was really stupid of me to do that but I was a emotional fool and couldn’t make out that those people just treating as family because I had lots of money to take of them . I took that money for business but spend on them…about 80%. I just can’t forgive myself though I know it was destined to happen like this. But my Mother didn’t had to take all the burden of my stupidity. I wish I didn’t had such a paradox life of lots of traumatic events that made me a traitor and seek acceptance elsewhere which was not a smart move though I had always considered myself a smart child. Why my Mother trusted with all money is because I was always a responsible kid…very organized, used keep my room very much clean and very good form. I really don’t know who cast a spell on me do those stupid and foolish things but there is nothing I can do but remember that money is very important for almost everything…just learned it in a very hard manner. What makes things harder to digest is my Mother never complained to me what she has lost…never!
I consider myself a traitor because God had loved me so much that he saved on his own, to choose to protect me from the evil but even being Decent teenager, my company with people was always corrupt. Till this date I couldn’t find a friend who didn’t took advantage of my innocence. I think total innocence leads people to do terrible things in life specially if that person is also very desperate to find a meaning to life and that was peace and happiness.
I don’t want to be rude to my family of telling you guys to whom today I have opened my heart of shear willingness to be forgiven for my sins. I just God could had something when I was used be brutally beaten in school and at home, verbally abused and demoralized. That gave satan an edge God to Hypnotize me into being a total bad boy at school though a lot of teachers adored me. See what ghappens to bad boys like me!. typing a small biography because there is on one to talk. MY foolish deeds have made a looser big time. Though I just live because I know one I will be a winner again because I was the same boy who had the best handwriting that was self improved …of course I used to be beaten up at school because they used to think it was someone else handwriting, I was also the best mathematician in my class. I was the best singer in whole of the school at age 11 though the principal hated me for I was still the naughtiest child in whole school of 620 students…WOW!. That was ME!
If only I had used my mind when I had lots of money to do some fruitful business,I would not be seeking Jobs to earn a living, but I think it was destined to happen so it happened. CRAP HAPPPENED.
I just wish God forgives my past mistakes and gives me a second chance to my dreams come true and and support my mother with her oncoming old age when she needs me the most! there is so much to tell friends …hope I keep telling you guys my mistakes so that you don’t do the same as I did though I know whatever drama happens because of some supreme reason and that God knows very well.
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