Always I have ventured into my reality to bring a portion of it to the people.At times it has been ambiguous,intriguing and interest worthy while at some other I lost the plot and made it a bamboozling obstacle that blocks people's thinking.Before I proceed let me grant a hearty apology to all who expected me to come up with a column that described not only a shocking scenario but also made people feel the real taste of life.Well, I would like to say is "life never stops.It fights till a heavy age unless the instruments of nature are against it".By saying this I never mean to rise in people's heart but ask to assist me to find a mountain that is steep enough to break me because when I reach its height and breathe that last hot breath before I fall cold.I would at least say as a mortal being I passed away near the heavens.I never mean to be rude but in fact know after reading this portion.Some may think I am the great philosopher "Socrates".Like I said there is nothing wrong with the thinking process but in the way I express my life.I lost myself during the years 2004-2008,at that time never knew what life is and why we should use our selves in life.Just sat on a corner of a bench and watched the other parts of the world putting themselves in business and me the useless part not responding to their actions.World was always a machine and we its parts before the film "Hugo" released.Where we heard this teaching and preaching.Like others I also needed some oiling before fixing myself to operate.Though I got better like few others.Some still rusted and made a blockage ahead for few moving parts.The story I am about to share with you is of a boy Ravi jain who is the black spectacles in my story.Well,that is what students called him at school.It was because he always wore it,even in classes he wouldn't remove it.Since,he applied for a special permission.A little unusual isn't it?.
For me he was a prime-time bully who was always after my life.He was one of the parts that I had to work with during the earlier mentioned phase. Whenever I retrieved myself from a fight or onslaught,his toe was always in front of my legs to trip me and make me land on my face.Though due to god's grace I didn't manage to catch any serious alarming injuries but always had few heart racer moments.While I looked back at him only to see a smirk and pitch black spectacles staring at me.In other occasions he used to write my name, draw a heart sign and write the girls name on the black board whom I was deeply fond of. While in some other he used to call me a "dork" and say,"try to stop entertaining yourself with books".I hated him till the core of my heart and always tried to take revenge by various means whether academically,sportingly or through extra-curricular activities. He lost every time and didn't even bother about it.This felt kind of a strange to me,another thing that felt a little strange was that "Mr.Black Spectacles" always stuck to a guy.By that I mean where ever Ravi wanted to go, that boy went with him on all occasions.I thought to myself,"a man has to find a past-time,rather than accompanying a foolish bully".Even the teachers scolded and dismantled Ravi on various occasions.Still he didn't seem to care, just went on with his life in a merry way up-till class VIII.Until,there came a time when he fled from the school after failing on that very class.The most amusing thing about this fact was that again that boy accompanied him.He also left and while leaving spared few minutes to give me his name as "Rounak".However,time passed and with it the leaves of the Oak tree encompassing near our school.As winter was approaching and we opened our eyes to find ourselves in class XI.A normal Economics class was taking place and we were called down for a quick assembly.What I heard there was shocking and never quite really knew the exact reason behind it.Only a ushered announcement that "our ex-student Mr.Ravi Jain had passed away due to a tragic car accident.Please pray so,that god rest his soul and lets have a 1 minute silence".I was blackened on that very moment and shock and dismay was running through my veins.For almost 10 days I could barely, forget the incident where I was visualizing his enemity with me and all those incidents he paved for knocking me down over the years from classes IV to VIII.However,like a withered leaf,I also changed and spilled all the sweet memories from school.Until, one day I met Rounak on the streets whose one glance I could not recognize.But,instead he picked me up as soon as I brushed shoulders with him,not to mention he had grown taller than before.We had a little chit-chat about things going on in life,what education we were pursuing and ultimately landing onto the name "Ravi Jain".When I suddenly, remembered that Rounak had also left school at that time and maybe could tell me a little more detailed stuff on Ravi.So,I prefered to ask him,He became a little disturbed upon hearing the name as he was the one who brought his name after all.Still,he insisted me to accompany him to a near-by coffee shop,where he was about to tell me about him.
We got a nice cozy place to sit where the waiter entertained us with a couple of menu cards and we placed our respective orders.After which Rounak started telling me about Ravi. He started,"You know, there are a few people we meet in life whom we know nothing about but,after knowing why do we change our feelings for him/her and not from the start".He was sounding a bit riddling and speechifying conundrums now and then.I said,"What are talking about,say it clearly".He said,"There was a reason I left with Ravi".I said,"Ok" tell me.He said,"I adored and cared about him like a brother never knew we will grow so fond of each other until?".I said,"Until,WHAT?" .He continued,"One day we had decided we will go to the mall together and had a fight because the mall he choose was not my favorite and we had to do what he said always".I said,"Yes, go on".He continued,"Do you remember he wore black spectacles always?".I said,"Yes because he thought it looked cool on his eyes".He said,"That's what we all thought.We two were crossing the road and he had his hand on my shoulders as always.I was a little pissed and threw his hand and cried,"Find,another shoulder" and crossed the road quickly,without even caring about him".I said,"And then what happened".He said,"What god had decided on his fate".I turned back and saw he was standing there not moving an inch,hesitating to cross.When suddenly,in front of my bare eyes I witnessed him crushed to death by a matador.I noticed the horror,sadness and sorrowful look in his face after he said this.He raised a hand on his face and said,"Do you wanna know what I got to know after that".I asked,"what".He said,"That those spectacles were the darkness he was hiding inside his eyes".I again screamed and said,"Will,you stop riddling and say what do you mean".He said,"His mother told me he was blind,but never preferred a walking stick because he thought it to be a weakness of the legs and said that he will always find a shoulder to help him walk.No matter,how much this world hates him they should never find out about his weakness.That is why he behaved rudely so,that no body comes near him or to close to him.I was the only one who got close to him.He got the special permission for this very reason. Maybe that day my friend needed my shoulders and I was not there, I abandoned him".After saying this Rounak left in a hurry leaving me,the customers and waiter not a single second to blink.
He later apologized to me and said that he didn't mean it.But,what he meant in the coffee shop that day left me without worlds and a question to ask,"Do,we know ourselves well now!".Ravi Jain confessed in class V that he always wore the spectacles because it looked cool on him and it gave him some attitude.We were small at that time to know.And,even after reaching the current age we don't know about the person.
