Hello all,
I have a great family (including an adorable niece), good friends, and pretty good job at the moment. Life is good except there's one thing missing...that special someone.
I was always the type of girl who would dream about her wedding day and all the festivities that would go along with it. I would just imagine in my mind my beautiful Indian sari (preferably pink since that's my favorite color), decked up with golden jewelry (necklace, earrings, anklets, toe rings etc.), my hands adorned with breathtaking mehndi designs and an unforgettable smile on my face. I could imagine all the fragnant flowers around me. The air filled with immense laughter, chatter, and melodious music. I just pictured myself so incredibly happy and cherishing every moment possible with my soon to be better half. He would not only be my husband but a friend, father (in the future), son, brother, uncle, and teacher.
Even though I've been born and raised in the US, don't let this fool you. I believe I have a good mix of both eastern and western values. Sometimes I feel like I was only born American by birth but am Indian at heart.
I don't really believe in dating so I've been trying to go the traditional route. I'm not against dating but I feel for that, you have to be in the right place at the right time. It may work out or it may not. I know a lot of people have found their significant others in college, through a mutual friend, work, or some other common organization. There might be a greater chance of things working out since "love" is hugely part of the equation. However, there's a great deal of risk involved too. Is the risk worth taking or not?
There hasn't been much success via the traditonal approach. Something or another always seems to come up. Either things just don't click or the guy seems rather confused about what he wants. Also some guys just aren't serious about settling down. Other issues include age, height, location, belonging to the same community, profession, horoscope matching, being from US and so fourth.
I'm just getting so tired of everyone's excuses. It seems like guys are looking for someone perfect but so called "perfection" doesn't exist. Another thing that comes up is "compatibility" and getting to know each other well. I feel like this is a contradiction because guys say that here but then on the other hand, they will go to India and marry whomever their parents tell them to. They won't even think twice about it but when it comes to me, it's totally different.
I guess all I can do is just pray and hope someone comes into my life soon. I feel so many people are getting married around me. Lets just hope there's someone special out there for me somewhere.
I'm turning 29 years old next month. I hope my birthday wish comes true.
I'm not one to do anything in haste and I don't ever want to be considered "desperate." I believe marriage is definitely a crucial decision in one's life. I guess when it's meant to happen then it will. Nothing can stop destiny or fate. I just have this fear though that I may end up alone forever and that scares me.
