Three years back when (to be exact August 2010) when I moved out from a Life of Luxury and Comfort to a smaller flat – there was much more to it, then just choosing an Option! It was Opting out of daily cage of pain, harassment, abuse-emotional and otherwise- choosing the freedom of blue skies. There were warnings and threats of all forms, that skies brings another kind of pain, that living a cajoled life blinding myself to all that was wrong is much easier, that I actually heard from Women of great Caliber(!) telling me “oh! How does it matter? Its better to stay and get harassed by one man then to walk out and make yourself available to harassment of many”
Well! They were right- to my sincere and deep admission they were, suddenly the world around me changed. Friends became strangers and strangers tried to get Cozy- well she’s there, she’s available, she has a son to take care of and stays in a flat of own. What else one needs for Casual(sex) breaks! Workplaces never asked for my Qualifications but how easy I was? Well that was just testosterone being testosterone- how unnatural is that, Woman you should have kept your Chemistry straight. Now comes the Women(married mostly)- I could have been carrying a board saying “Save your Husbands from Me”. I mean how ridiculous is that?! Why will I ever be interested in that Pet Animal so domesticated by you at all. Aren’t they enough single men? What is that bigger insecurity? Is he a Greek God or a blessing from above?
But the GOOD occurrence which happened in all this mayhem was- I found a true world! A world which was not so perfect , and yet belonged to me in all sense. There was a Maid who stayed with me at wee hours, got a gas stove(slightly broken) from her house. That stove was my actual bread and butter for many days to come. There was a Cab service which would send their cab even at the shortest notice in midnight, coz my kid broke into an asthma attack! Then there was this Girl in the bank who transferred money from her personal account to my account on a month when my salary got delayed. A Grocery store which would give me ration in debt, on the times when I ran out of money. A rustic( as they would call in this world of very educated and suave people) property broker actually fibbed to get a Flat for me- and well that brings to a Truth- nobody wants to rent out a flat to a single woman with a child. Either you should be a family, a bunch of women, college goers or something that’s LEGAL!
And then they were the blessed Trespasser(s)literally! They just Broke into my life no matter how much I raised that board of No Entry! I must have feigned ignorance, irritation, was at my best uncommunicative and frustrating self. But they being Him never took a No for the answer. Small gestures, tokens, and not anything which can be assessed in valuations and monetary terms. But then such are Life saviors, to keep up that Lifeguard Flag up even if they know that you are an expert amateurish swimmer(!)
Then they were the Fourth kinds (p*ss me off the most). That “Heroine worship” look which they carried on their face. I mean being a Bad influence does have its Good Influence too!
As of now my biggest worry is- whether to get that AC serviced or not, a pair of pigeons have made it their house all winter, saw a child being born and learn new steps to fly, he has flown but they still come back every evening just at the crack of dusk. To cozy back in their new house.
