I do not know what ‘soulmate’ means exactly. But I know for sure, I found mine.
Recent Feelings
Since my wedding has been fixed, a perennial tension I am going through all the time. A hollow feeling numbs my nerves often(This is called FEAR!) but I somehow manage to live in spite of this. May be this is the fear of leaving my place & family, living in other place, the oncoming inevitable huge change of life.
I never know what other girls feel like in my situation – it is surely an anxious time for all – who can stay carefree being in front of this grand & forever change of life. During travel in metro, there are some women co-passengers who know about my wedding & pull my leg often. Even these people can read it on my face. There’s no use of hiding the feeling.
Journey Together
Suddenly, memories entered my mind. From the first meeting day till date: it is like a mixed journey. Mixed because, his family was not happy to accept me at the first place because I don’t belong from a Brahmin family & they happen to be conservative Brahmins. Still I remember that night he said, if we going to marry & stay together for the rest of our lives, we cannot be happy without the blessings of our parents.
We spent a lot good times together. I was in 2nd year of college & he just passed from IIHM, Kolkata jab we met first time. It was summer of 2009. After that I completed my PGDM in Mass Comm., he got the first job in Indore & went there, then shifted to Bangalore, I joined my job and we are together in this distant relationship since then.
Would-be
When I look back, I wonder how long 4 years had passed just like that; this April would be the 5th year of our first meeting. How fast time passes away - and how we stayed together in ups & downs, how he convinced his family members that they end up agreeing happily(that is after meeting me though:-P), how he valued my sacrifices & thoughts, supported & guided me in the steps of my life. He never failed me.
He never said that he can’t live without me, but he never could. He never saw how I dressed but seen through my mind whether I am comfortable. He never bought me any expensive gift but loved me so unconditionally that I never felt the need to be gifted. He never said me that I look beautiful but honoured me always that I could never feel that I don’t look that beautiful. We never lived together under one roof but we lived together the entire time we stayed awake(on phone, of course!).
Soulmate
He transformed me into a better human being. He is not a reflection of mine on mirror but a perfect fit to my soul. He accepted my deficiencies, scolded me for my mistakes, forgave my blunders, praised me for my success, supported me emotionally, inspired me in lows, and loved me for who I am.
I never gave a second thought when he asked me for wedding. I accepted instantly. I feel blessed today that he is my life partner. Who else can be called my soulmate other than him?
Stay blessed. Stay together. Stay as soulmates.
Thanks for reading,
Moumita
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NB:- I was thinking about wedding rituals, whether anything left to shop, planning the previous day program, whether the colour of mahendi would stay till reception night etc. various topics. So, a new post appeared on MS in this lazy afternoon.
