As I saw many msians putting their chidhood memories in words,( also I read caretaker's msg, & faisal's dp,) I thought of jotting down mine also, initially I was a bit reluctant,as I try and avoid discussing ths with anyone, but thn I thought for hw long will I behave like tht?, after all everyone has their share of joys and sorrows, & life's not a bed of roses for everyone!!, so why not share it with ur friends. if they can do it so can i, & whts the harm , at the end of the day, it's gonna help me unburden myself , and their may be others who can relate with it, like the way I do, (with few of thm.)
i belong to a middle class punjabi family, my role model is my " biji"( my granny), who after the demise of my grandpa, single handedly, brought up her five kids,(three boys and two girls)at tht time, my father who was the eldest ,was in 10th stand. and my aunt was few months old!!.
Values like self respect, truth, patience and hard work were inculcated in us from the very begining, life was smooth,(if not very well equipped), we all were happy with wht all we had.I'm proud of the fact tht, with all the odds in his life my father became an engineer & have designed many beautiful buildings in delhi.
Thn as if thre was curse on my family, in the span of few years I lost my father and both the uncles(chachus),even my choti and badi buas(aunts), were widowed!!! it was like a bolt after bolt, destiny never gave us chance to overcome one shock, and gave us the other, again my biji lost all the earning members of the family, & on top of it, there was us, her two widowed daughter in laws(tht's my mom & chachi),but my biji was brave enough to face tht also, though she did not have much choices.
Together we faced all the hard shps tht life threw on us.
I still remeber hw as child I used to hatee!!! those kids with expensive toys, fancy clothes, beautiful hair accesories, nice stationery,(i loved to paint, but never had enough money to buy paints ,if I had some, I used to spend it on books),
I used to come home houling whn I see a kid being picked by her dad from school in their car, or a stupid cousin flaunted her new school bag to tease me,,i' ve already mentioned in my last dp hw I hated my all gurls school,after leavn a nice fancy co-eds school.
I've never been to any school or college tours, not tht mom used to refuse, but I never told here if there was any trip organised coz I know tht would be an added burden to her limited resourses.
These were vry small things but to me they were all like far feched dreams, I still remember, hw difficult was it for me to study economics from a english medium book, wherein rest of the class used to have a hindi medium book!!!, there was no separate section for me, I used to sit with hindi medium kids, but thank fully my family, frinds, read gurl friends,,:) and teachers were very my support system.
i remeber giving language tutions to my classmates in 6th standard to earn some extra bucks!!!,
in the morn they were my classmates and in the even I was the teacher!!!.
I think tht's the begining of my teaching career,,,,,,,,,,,,lol.
I know life's been a B@#&* to me, but at end of the day, I see it as a blessing in disguise, I know tht i'll be contended even with my kids smile,or a new budding leaf in my potted plants, I don't have to go & spurlge on fancy things to beat my stress, now I value each single penny tht I have, & am not seekn solace in materialistic things coz I have repeatedly lost wht I valued most in my life, & those were definitely not non living things!!!
All I can say now is tht I don't have many pleasent memories of my childhood, & mine was definitely different from the rest,tht's the reason I never wanted to share with u guyz at first.
In spite of all tht I would like to say thank to my GOD, for giving me such a beautiful family,trustworthy friends, a happy and contended life,& above all,for giving me a life partner,( who has faced the same hardships in his life, and I have no shame in saying, who is as self made and as self less as I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!.)
It is never too late to have a happy childhood, trust me on ths one,,,,,I'm reliving it with my lovely kids Riddhima and Siddhant, ,,,,,,,,,:D
GOD BLESS !!!them & all the kids,,
and their childhood.
