there is always a time when a person really gets scared of loosing some one and even knowing the truth doesn't scare that person away from loving, a love so true and so deep , so innocent that it hurts! I hate being emotional ,though I am extremely outspoken and a person who just cant stand nonsense (may be most of u know bu now by an unfortunate exchange of dialogues with a female member of the site) But here , today on MS I want to tell something relating to my heart and soul ; My pet dog, a female Lhasa apso of eleven years of age ; her name is MAY ; in Bengali it means :GIRL
This little BUNDLE OF JOY came to me in dehradun on 18th may 2000 in small bag of my fathers physiotherapy bag, she was so small at that time nobody noticed, from his very dear friend as a gift, we as kids loved her , specially my sister, who I like a twin to me, and as I ,a little man of sorts , didn't like her much, cause I already had a female dingo who was very famous or say infamous for being very ferocious ( she had bitten seven man by that time, I really don't remember, what I used to feed her) for me it was illogical for me to have a such a small pet ,one that wee had to take care, like all show and no go!
but after a very unfortunate and painful death of lassie, my first dingo dog, I had become totally confuse with my life, her death death was all of a sudden, and I couldn't understand at that time how to deal with that sorrow of loosing my best friend, and at that time I started devoting all my love to this little GIRL, MAY. and after all these years, since Nov 2002, we both were very fond of each other, and in the whole family, she loves me the most, she is so beautiful and charming, full of love and excitement, that it makes me think , not everything in this world should be evaluated of it purposefulness but all for its love,like she does to me for all these years, traveling every where I went, lived in every possible condition without a complain as a partner and a friend indeed she is.
as now she is a old girl now, I can see cataract in her eyes, her walk shows signs of arthritis, and though I know she wont e here for long, my heart cry's. Even worse is that my mother and sister doesn't want to face this fact that she is only for 2-3 years more...it really breaks my heart. may be even this ''BAHARON KI RANI" (THAT'S WHAT MY MOTHER CALLS HER BY TAKING HER IN HER HANDS) how much she has done for everyone of us despite just weighing 6 kgs
when she will go, I know I will cry and cry,but this is what has to happen one day, as I am unable to walk her, shes in jammu with my mother; GOD made this world in such a setting that we love for what we have so tat when its gone we will miss, if immortal , we could had never understood or love her the way we love today
I LOVE U MAY (MY DAUGHTER, MY CLOSEST FRIEND)
magar jaate jate mai ek jagjit singh ki ek shayari pesh karna manunga
ye duniya jo hai jaadoo ka khilona, mil jaye to mitti hai, kho jaaye toh sona
a frist diary from the bottom of my heart, dedicated to my MAY.
have a nice day, and remember, never stop counting your blessings
