4th November 2011
What it means when you grow up!!
I was going over the Chinmaya Mission website, and I came across a hint that referred to the self realization of a person, especially this Diwali, by Sw Tejomayanandaji. I’m not sure what the full connotation of absolute realization is, but I can say this for myself, I do feel fully baked to a large extent, even literally in this sweltering heat.
Also, I was reminded by Kritika Rangarajan’s post (Getting older, but duller) to pay my gratitude to the one behind all of this, namely, my own personal god, my Hindu trinity, my Self. I would also like to thank all those who made this possible, the ones with me, and those against, brilliant !!
Many triumphs, losses, acceptances, break ups, rejections, dilemmas, physical distresses, mental hassles and conflicts later, I can say that I’m in a cool space today. I have no regrets or no bad blood. Whatever I thought, happened, in fact, I prompted my own destiny by my thoughts, it’s true!
I also feel that I have a personal relationship with the highest force in nature, and that he challenges us to bring out the best in us. When I was in the prime of my youth, I was supremely concerned about my physicality. But things improved steadily. I became interested in deep study, studied almost everything under the sky that caught my desire, and yes, took around 12 years to master my writing skills. It’s called evolution of the spirit.
Other than that, I dabbled in various aspects of worldly engagements, and at this point, I feel contented. I may not have made it so well materialistically, but that’s because I was honest, principled, and did not ever compromise with my ideologies.
I did tweak and test the efficacies of ancient traditions and adapted them to my need, not the other way round. I am also proud of the way I grew up to understand the manipulations and politics of people, of society, of families, of friends, boy friends, uhh, where’s that??
I hope despite all the things that went wrong, I am in a global cum local state, where you live in the present, plan for the future, but adapt as things turn out!!
