The incidents I mentioned in part 1 is just one of the roller coaster that happened in my life. I have traveled near and far in my life's journey. Some are good, some are bad, some are wonderful, while some are sorrowful. Yes, there are lots of big blows once in awhile as I go on living. The first death that came in the family was when my mom died of cardiac arrest. After another six months, my dad followed because of skin cancer. The entire family grieved for the loss of our love one- one after the other. I cried so much. I felt that I lost some parts of my body that I cant go on living anymore. How I wish to share my little achievement with them, but I cant do it anymore because they are gone forever. But time is a great healer so they say; I learned to accept that life must go on, even without them!
Then one day, another cross to carry came. I stumbled in another stormy path where only the tough one can take it, that I know. I wasn't tough during those times, because I never dreamed of a broken home. But sometimes life is so playful. The more you try to have a happy and perfect marriage life the more that the temptation came. In the middle of my journey to a happy normal life, I bumped the rocky road. The bump was so strong and deep that its hard for me to pushed through to a never ending love story, I dreamed of! The dead end was so near that I separated from my hubby after knowing he's playing with fire. And the rest is just another sad story to tell. Twenty four year of living together between ups and downs was no joke. But not all love stories was meant to end like a fairy tale that says," And they live happily ever after."
I seek both spiritual and legal advice and push through with my annulment after six years of being separated. And some months after I filed the case, the court decided in my favor and I was back to my single status again. With this tough decision I know that life will not be easy for me after the separation. I know that I have lots of responsibilities to carry on. The duty of being a single mom was too heavy for me to go through. But life is always a journey that you continue to walk on, even you cross another thorny path again and again.For only death can stop you from moving on.
to be continued...
