Dear MSian family and friends,
Due to so many interruptions that came up before and after election, my diary post entitled, "When Scarlet Turns Gray" was stopped for awhile and now its back to continue the Part 13. I hope you will still enjoy reading the story.
The Story;
Randy was looking at her with eyes so soft, as if asking for her approval. Suddenly Carla open her mouth, almost murmuring," Randy, I dont know about forever, but I care about the present. Because it's today that I need to have a wise decision. One wrong move will break again my family. "Carla was trying to be more sensible and reasonable.
"Forever may not come anymore. Today is here, we both are in the same boat. We cannot solve our complicated life by adding more complicated situations. We better enjoy the night together as friend and not start a possible trouble in our lives." Carla added.
"Carla there's no time for argument or looking for trouble, tomorrow Im leaving and I want an assurance that when I comeback you are still here waiting for me." Randy insisted.
" Randy, dont mistook my liking for you as love already. Yes, its not hard to love you but whats the use? We cant shout to the world and say, Hey, I want you to meet my hubby, because thats too impossible! Your wife is still very much alive. And... remember, I am a victim of betrayal and abandonment, I know how it hurts me. I don't want more tears to fall and break another marriage life for other women. If we can stop it here, then lets stop it."Carla explained.
"Carla, as what I have told you that my wife has an impossible dream. She wants to reach for the star when I can only offer the sea bellow the clouds. She is not contented of being a simple wife and mom of our kids. She aim higher that is beyond our reach and thats where trouble comes in most of the time." Randy was trying to convinced her more.
"You see, she already has the higher position in the company where she work but she wants more, that she even forget her family needs her too. There's too much ambition that swallowed her whole-being, Carla. Do you understand me?"he asked slowly, as if begging to understand him.
"Randy, I thought you understood me. I cant be a mistress forever Randy. I never dreamed to become one, not in my wildest dream, nor to have a broken family. I have simple dreams and wants. I dont want complicated life. You're a man, you can always go back to you wife and talk to her and tell her what will make your life happy. Try to understand her dreams and needs. Im sure what she aim for, is for the best interest of your family. Maybe she just need some time to realize that family first than her dreams. I believe that if you talk to her, she will understand you more. "
Carla was trying to control herself as she already feel pity for Randy.
"No Carla, she is not you. She is not contented with what she already have. She believe she needs more in her life than spending time together with our two kids...she would rather attend out of town seminars and lectures than have a precious bonding moment with me and the kids."Randy continued explaining.
"I also have dreams Carla, but... family is my priority. You see, I come home every year, and a month vacation. How can I discuss my plans with her when she's not always around when I come home?" Randy's eyes became moistened as he go on telling Carla.
"One more year...yes, one more year Carla, and I will be one rank higher . I'll be a captain of one of the luxury liners. And I need someone like you who needs a man like me, Carla. Lets not worry about the future, let's just give it a chance. We can always try, and work out for the best."Randy was almost in tears pleading for Carla to understand him more.
to be continued...
