The angry lava she had kept inside her, have started flowing undisturbed.
She feels that the eagle must fly to soar the highest sky, and bring back the rage slowly but fiercely.
But... she wanted peace of mind and harmony, more than vengeance.
She wanted to sleep soundly until another morning comes.
She doesnt want to wake up in the middle of the night, full of tears and anger.
She love her children more, even though the hatred she felt for Jim is strong.
She thought, that she could be angry with Jim for a lifetime- but is that what she really wanted?
And now, she is ready to swallow her pride to make her life worth living again, but...
Jim deserves to know how angry she was for him. Thats why now, she wanted it out!
Carla was almost carried away to cry again, but she controlled herself.
All she wanted was pour out all her hatred to Jim, then forget it after she would say it all.
Then she continued telling Jim her sufferings. While Jim was just looking at her.
He can almost feels the heavy heart Carla has.
He can't say a word to stop her. He knows the fury of hatred is too much to bear for her.
So he just listened, while in the corner of his eyes, some moist are ready to fall.
"I have waited for so long Jim... day and night... I have cried so much...
if I could only collect all those tears that falls on my eyes...
I could have drown myself in the deep sea with all those tears...
I have suffered so much pain inside my heart... the scar was too deep, Jim.
But I know that, no matter I cry a river, its still not going to erase the scar that you left inside here...
All I wanted now is happiness and a good future of our children even if it means less for myself .
Its enough that we will stay friendly with each other, but never a lover or a couple again.
My heart was like a red Scarlet when we were together.
The blood that runs through the veins in my heart makes it red,
because there's a common love between us, but now...
Carla stopped for awhile to give chance to take a deep breath, as she feels her heart is slowly dying again.
"The Scarlet red have faded.. and I cant make it red anymore. "
She continued in between sigh and misty eyes.
"Im sorry Jim, after all these years, you have not done anything to maintain the Scarlet red.
And I have no intentions of making it red again with you.
But we can always stay friend but not so close anymore...
I hope you understand what I'm trying to tell you.
You will always remain a father to our children.
But I can never be your wife for life...thats all we have to do for now.
Be a good parent to them but not as couple, or me, being your wife again.
I realized that some people are not meant to be together forever, that's how we are now,Jim.
What matter now is today, and the future that promise a new and lovely horizon of life.
It hurts yes, but...When The Scarlet Turns Gray already, its impossible to make it red again, more so with for you, Jim!Our time has come to an end...
...and by the way, thank you for all the time when you're loving me honestly before the betrayal.
And now, its time to say ....Goodbye Jim, be happy!"
Carla left with a light heart and clean conscience that he was able to talk to Jim and pour out her raging heart. She feels good that she has forgiven Jim and now she looks forward for the promise of a new tomorrow with new hope and a new life!
While Jim felt, his heart just broken and on bended knees, he covers his face with his hands.
The moist that was about to fall while ago, drop by drop wet his fingers. He realized how fool he was.
He cant do anything now to win back Carla, but just regret the time that he made ...THE SCARLET TURNS GRAY!
END
By angel_babe55(copyright 2011)
