jess: I was willing to win your trust as a fair person, so I started the journey to you with my real id
jess: and I never know that we could be so close
jess: Paloma... I hope I didn't hurt you
paloma: I blamed you for doing so,Jess
paloma: we could have been together if you only told me...oh God!
paloma: Why Steve? ahhhhh....." Paloma wanted to scream and release the agonizing denial building inside her against what she have discovered.
paloma: I dont know what to call you now! Why you need to hinder the joy we could have been enjoying? And now that Im not free you come back to me, just to make me despair of the situation?" Oh,Jess..." and Paloma was sobbing again to know the truth. jess: and there was a fear of loosing you too
paloma: why, Jess?
jess: I was not ready to take risk
paloma: what made you fear to loose me when your not in love with me when you're in steve?
jess: but as a person I was always your friend
jess: I mean always wanted to be
jess: fear of loosing a nice person as a friend
paloma: then how you learn to love me?
paloma: or when did you learn to love me?
jess: well its difficult to say a point
paloma: when did you know or start to feel, that you're already loving me?
jess: for men it's difficult to say
jess: and for you, my feelings started from the day you accepted me as a friend, as Jess.
Kringg..kringgg...the ring of the telephone startled Paloma out of her reverie that made her back to her senses. she realized that she is in the office and her officemates are wondering whats happening to her. Paloma, was trying to compose herself as she started to begin the day with few paper works but what she felt inside was too heavy for her to carry. Her office mates noticed her being sad. " Paloma, are you ok?" her boss asked. " You seem sick Paloma, take half day and better go home and rest if you're not feeling well. " her boss told her. " oh , errr.. yes..maybe I'd rather go home, Im a bit upset. Thank you sir." She got her bag and some important papers and left.
As she was passing down the mall everything seems dull, while some days ago she enjoyed mall hopping with her friends. She walk and walk until she gets exhausted. By the time she was home, twa's already dusk. She made herself straight to her bed and minutes later, she made hot, deep bath, closed eyes as she tried to soothe herself by that warm bath. As soon as she is done, she change a red night dress and lied down. She can't help not to admire the light of the moon cascading through the window pane as the silhuette shadow of the trees swaying outside, made the night more melancholic and and nostalgic. The agony of pain and depression was too much to bear. She tried to have some sleep but the voice of Jess or Steve on the headfon keeps haunting her. She remembered Jess wrote some poems and sent it to her email. She printed the copy and read it again and again and she cant help not to smile. "Ohh... no wonder he wrote this poem." she mused and read it again.
The Poem
Why you can’t get whom you love?
Why cant it be that the one you love,
Can't be yours?
When your two hearts
Beats together in one melody?
There are lots of people around us
But why my heart feel so lonely?
When everything sorrounds me,
Are happy places and pretty faces?
But can't give my heart peace?
Why there is no sound as such
There are lots of material things around
But why I'm still feeling like thirsty
There is so many reasons to live
But why I can’t find someone I can die for and die for me?
Note: please forgive for my grammatical mistakes .....
This all happen bcoz of your inspiration...
thanx baby,
Jess
This is just one of the poem that Jess wrote to her, and reading it over and over again makes Paloma feels good to know. In some distant corner of her mind, she remembered the happy moments they have. And yes, Jess have done wrong to her, but its not enough to hate and forget him. Jess is still the man that made her feel attractive and desirable woman... a woman worthy to be loved. "Oh Jess... we may not be, but all I wish for you is your lifetime happines. Yes Steve, we have the right love in the wrong time."Paloma keeps repeating to herself. She tried to closed her eyes and sleep. And this time its different, she have peace of mind because she have told Jess the truth about her engagement. Her searched for her friend Steve,, was over. Jess had been truthful to her as Jess and Steve at the same time. The rage that she had while ago is now gone and finally said,"Jess, I know I love you Before I meet You!"
by: angel_babe55
