Three is A Crowd, Part 3- The Reply

Dear Paul,

Since the time I told you about Michael and me, I felt a little relieved that at last I have told you.Yes, you're right when you said that I'm still torn between Michael and you. You see, this is not just a question of "Who's who" is the most macho one as you both have that special qualities any woman will always love and cherish. You both have shown your own machoism. There are so many to mentions that I don't need to go into details anymore. Just the fact that you and me get closer the more we know each other almost everyday, and for Michael and me who still sticks together after a year despite hard communications we have only proved that, there's something that made me love and cherish you both.

And as I go on, I want to answer some of your your question-"What if there's a war and nobody showed up to fight?"Actually, there's no war to fight for, if you're referring to Michael. Michael knew that I'm waiting for him to come this year. I have told you that even before the first time I met you. I have already set the time frame for Michael to prove his true intentions to me whether he will come or not. September is the final countdown of my waiting. So at least, if Michael is just playing game, I'll not forever be waiting for nothing fooling myself. Because nobody knows what's real until it's real. I'm very much of a realistic woman even if truth hurts. I believe that not everything you want in life can be achieved anytime you want it. Sometimes it takes much pain or joy for you to understand that life is a drama, a romance, a comedy, a tragedy, and the worst is treachery. But in the end life itself is beautiful but full of mystery. So if Michael is only a good lover on net, it will be sad but at least it does no harm to me for not meeting him on real and leave me in vain after.

But as far as I know of Michael, he says what he mean and meant what he says, that's what made him different from other guys I have known here on net. But if for whatever reasons he can't come, I know it's part of God's plan then. HE knows best, you know what I mean. And I would like to reiterate what I have mentioned already, " there's no war between you and Michael.Michael never knew all about you."The battle only begun between me and myself, when I get confused of my feelings. That sounds funny, but you know , you're one of the reason why its hard for me to decide for now.And the more that I need God's intervention to come up with the right decision. I can't afford to looseyou both same as I cant imagine to hurtneither one of you, but I know I can't have you both at any rate.

Another point I want to mention- you're right in your observation that, "Some men will brag about their personal attributes in order to gain favor with the objects of their affection."Well, I'm glad you're not one of them. In my three years of chatting here, there are men in different culture, races and ages who tried to get my attention. Some, almost succeeded but somewhere along, failed to make it, until such time that I met Michael. And I find only him is for real this time,not until I knew you too. Some are still trying to comeback to me, while others still don't give up. But, since the time I met Michael my mind is only focused on him. I hold on to his words, his plans, his promises.