Some weeks ago, Caretaker suggested writing something about the roller coaster of life. Then I started thinking how or where to start my own roller coaster. But nothing comes in my thought, until I heard a song somewhere being played. The song have already faded in the air but the lines still echoes in my ear which says," I have my share of life''s ups and downs, but fate''s been kind the down had been few..." Then, I hummm the rest of the lines and an idea sparked in my mind. Then I remember that in my case, the downs were not few because it keeps coming whenever I get up again. Then I remember my sister told me one time,"Dont complain, problems in life are what keeps us going." But I said," I''m not complaining sis, I''m just sharing."Then another line keeps bugging in my memory," I guess I could say, that Ive been lucky..." I just mumbled some of the words.... Maybe I am... yes, maybe I am; because Im still alive.
Right now, I am inside this white painted room, where the scent of the medicines are very prominent. And I see about seven beds inside this room and the three beds are being occupied by the three guys, lying. The two guys have an IV in their hands and the other guy is an old man. Yes, right now Im inside the hospital room because, one of the patient is my son. He is confined right now. I mentioned this incidents because of the related topic I''m going to share with you all.
The old man give up life easily as he was lying there on the hospital bed for the past few weeks already. Knowing that, living longer has a little chance, he choose to give up lifethan continue the fight for it. His last words before he was gone were," I''m already tired and I want to rest."After an hour he rested forever. Actually, I never talked to him or to his wife, but my daughter-in-law told me about him.
His words reminded me of my son, some five or six years ago. The same lines that my son mentioned too when he was sick that time. He told me one morning," Mom, I''m already tired. I wanted to rest." With teary eyes he looked at me. I see in his eyes a melancholic look of a tired young man. I tapped his shoulder and said, "Son, help yourself that you can get up tomorrow and we will see a doctor specialist, so we will know what's wrong with you."I hide my tears as it started to moisten at the end of my eyelids. I don't want him to see me weak in his pain and weakest moment. Twas during this time when my life was like a troubled water under the bridge because of my separation to their dad, which adds more pain when you know you have no one to turn to.
The next day we went to a private clinic. But the lady physician suggested us to see another doctor for second opinion, especially the neuro surgeon specialist. So, we did as per her advised. After some physical checked up and laboratory tests, its only then I knew that my son was among the rare case of Barter Syndrome''s patient. Its an illness that may lead to a permanent paralysis or even death, if not taken cared of properly. The lack of potassium is one major cause of the sudden attack to the patient. Its a very rare illness that may occur in every four to five thousand patients. A possibility that one patient maybe affected according to the doctor specialist that diagnosed my son''s illnes. I really don't have idea what's it all about at first, but- I putall my trust to God that the attending physician is the right doctor for my son.
My son was under medication for six-months after thorough examination 'til he recovered his health back. But it didn't end there. One day, he was confined in hospital in an ICU room for almost a month.That was the first attacked after two years that he recovered from six months medication. He was almost paralyzed at that time, but I didn't give up asking God to help him recover his health again. And today, after another three years, he is back to hospital again for another attack. But I know God will not leave us in pain always. I have no intentions to quit asking Him for His will to be done. I believe that," Winners don't quit and quitters don't win."These are the inspirational words to me most of the times, whenever I feel so down.
to be continued...
