I just read Meghana’s post passion, passion about writing that put me also to think that what is writing for me, whether it is passion, relaxation or expression for me. I concluded it is expression; the most important thing in writing
There may be many theories, first is that you write what you feel, or you write what you see, sometime your achievement, your frustrations, your love, your loss and so many etc..
But my point is different, I remember long back in mid-nineties, I went into a marriage far from Delhi, it was a distant relatives marriage party and as I always hate to going into marriages for many reasons as I will not elaborate here, and suddenly I feel asI do not belongs to here, deafening sounds of DJ, fake smiles, and irritating behaviour, I was feeling lost, abandoned destitute, just like master Copperfield of Charles dickens classic. I somehow felt that I don’t belong to this world; it is quite completely alien atmosphere for me.
So asked a waiter that is there any stationery shop here? He seemed puzzled, in such a grand party, with so many things that can cater a men’s mind, can somebody be as insane as asking for stationery shop, but he somehow pointed towards a nearby market.
I straight went to that shop bought a very small notebook in rupees five, a pencil and a sharpener, I came again on the party venue, fixed myself on a chair, and wrote in that diary that there are horizontal lines and there are vertical lines and lines meet to each other and makes circular linesI keep on writing writing….and I go on writing, and it was all the jargon, totally jargon of what I was writing, but suddenly I
was transported into another world, world where I do belongs, where things matters to me be and all what I dislike can be forgotten. There was a momentary.. Release, release of expressions.
So that is writing for me a relaxation exercise, technique of releasing expressions, I do write sometime in trains, in buses, in Auto, wherever I see something on which I feel I should write. My English is not great, I do mistakes in Grammar, but my love to writing is still intact, and I try to put myself as honestly as possible in writing. I appreciate honest writing, I rates Saadat hasan Manto as the greatest in contemporary writers.
